AA – A Time To Deal With It

Although there was a time in my life I truly needed AA (and only by my wife’s guts and God’s grace is it no longer an issue), this commentary is not about the ubiquitous Alcoholics Anonymous program. My personal AA is: Annoyance, Anger.

Perhaps my memory has skewed over the years, but I seem to recall that when I was younger, being annoyed—although commonplace—had no detrimental effect on me. It was, as the name implies, simply an annoyance. Now at almost 50 I find where there once was a wide berth between annoyance and anger…it has now become a thin line. A very thin line.

My commute to work each morning is chock full of annoyances but my anger seems to be the immediate follow up. It’s almost a call-and-response situation. Annoyance pops up…anger. Annoyance pops up…anger. It’s a cycle that is not only disturbing but feels like it’s becoming a virtual habit.

When I do get angry I usually just say a quick, “Sorry, Lord” and get on with things. I’m not even sure if that counts in God’s book, but I say it often nonetheless. What I really need is to get to the source of this. My spirit feels restless all the time. I feel like I’m communing with God just as much as I always have…but something certainly seems different.

That’s it. Most of my commentaries leave you with a positive note of encouragement or assurance. Today I guess I need to simply request prayer from anyone who reads this and say, “Hey…we’re all in this life together. If you happen to feel the same as I do, don’t feel alone. Just pray and keep praying. God is gracious and good.” What else is there to say?

Blessings –
Greg Morton
© May 14, 2009